š¶ The Reluctant Shaman: 5 Rituals Thatāll Get You Through the Day (and Maybe the Apocalypse)
Written by TrƩ Taylor & Bleep the Tattoo
Category: Everyday Wellness ā Spiritual Awakening
šāØ Written on a rainy full-moon morningā¦
A love letter to the awakened, exhausted, half-crazy souls learning to stand in their own fire.
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ā” The Call I Didnāt Ask For
Iām the most reluctant shaman youāll ever meet. I didnāt sign up. I got drafted. Every time I tried to ignore it, I suffered. So I stopped running. I asked for help. The ādark attacksā eased, the veil thinned, and the inner guidance got loud enough to hear over the algorithmās circus.
š¶ Whatās Actually Happening (in plain talk)
My nervous system is different. Call it neurodiverse, call it lightning-wiredāI feel frequencies, patterns, and subtext like weather.
When I go āout,ā Iām actually going in. Thereās a whole world inside the solar plexus door.
Iām not alone. Protection showed upāangels, deities, ancestorsāwhen I finally asked. Turns out humility is a portal key.
š The RA Current & the Alien-Artist Problem
I resonate with Sun-fire. Iām built to burn fog. That makes some things simple (I canāt tolerate lies) and some things hard (demons hate daybreak). If youāre like me, your light hurts whatās hiding. Thatās not ego; itās physics.
š The Work: Shadow, Mercy, Repeat
I did not bootstrap my soul with bubble baths. I faced the parts of me Iād exiledāchild, teen, maiden, mother, croneāand told the truth. I practiced radical accountability. I forgave what I could.
When I couldnāt, I prayed šø The Hoāoponopono Prayer - Hoāoponopono is an ancient Hawaiian healing practice for forgiveness, reconciliation, and emotional cleansing. It reminds us that peace begins within ā through love, humility, and gratitude.): Iām sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you.
On loop. Until something unclenched.
š Field Notes from the Front Lines
You will lose people. Some canāt level up yet. Love them anyway.
You will feel crazy. Youāre not. Your antennae are just finally working.
Beauty returns first: color gets louder; breath goes deeper; silence tastes sweet.
You wonāt fear death like before. Thatās not recklessness; itās recognition.
Bleep: āIf self-love were a yoga pose, Iād still be trying to untangle my middle finger from last Tuesday.ā
š§ Five Rituals Thatāll Get You Through the Day (and Maybe the Apocalypse)
1) The 90-Second Reset
Cold water on wrists + 6 slow breaths in and out of the belly. Touch wood, stone, or earth. Whisper one true sentence: āI am here.ā
2) State-Breakers (when your brain is screaming):
Blast ocean sounds or Schumann Resonance.
Shake your body for one full song.
Smell something citrus or mint.
Put your bare feet on ground. Clock 60 seconds. Thatās it.
3) The āNo External Saviorā Rule
No substances, no shopping, no sex-as-anesthesia. Sit. Breathe. Ask. Receive. You donāt need a cathedralājust honest oxygen.
4) Micro-Courage
Do one novel thing every day. Tiny, weird, harmless. Novelty re-threads the nervous system.
5) The Four-Line Mercy (pin this to your mirror)
Tell the truth.
Do the next kind thing.
Guard your mornings.
Go to bed clean (forgive or put it in a box for tomorrow).
Bleep: āShadow work? Honey, I found so many shadows I could open a thrift store.ā
š A Note to My People
Iām still technically houseless. Iām not homeless; I live in myself now. Iām scared sometimes. Iām also lighter than Iāve been in years. If any of this rings in your bones, you might be tribe. Subscribe, reach out, and letās walk each other homeāwith music, food, art, and audacity.
š§Ŗ For the Newly-Awakened (starter kit)
Create a tiny altar: candle, rock, cup of water. Keep it simple.
Journal prompt: āWhat am I pretending not to know today?ā
Boundary mantra: āI donāt attend every argument Iām invited to.ā
Emergency prayer: āShow me whatās mine. Remove what isnāt.ā
šÆļø The Three Contemplative Questions
If you had one year to live at full integrity, what would you stop doing this week?
Where does your body say ānoā but your mouth keeps saying āyesā?
What small, brave act would future-you thank you for by Friday?
š£ Call to the Odd & Holy
Are you leveling up, glitching, dreaming wild, or going numb?
Tell me. Send your story (video or email note).
If you feel called to collaborateāpodcast, music, safe-haven building, wellness toolsāstep forward. Iām building circles, not stages.
šā” From TrĆ© Taylor & Bleep the Tattoo
Here is a song I wrote with ai for our becoming ā to assist the wild, beautiful, lonely climb of transformation.
Not everyone can come with you, and thatās heartbreak and liberation all at once.
But listen⦠you donāt have to walk it alone.
If you relate to this, drop me a line or comment below. I want to hear from you.
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ā TrĆ© Taylor & Bleep the Tattoo
Bleep: āIf enlightenment had a theme song, itād probably be in 7/8 time and slightly out of tune ā just like me.ā š¶
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